I think maybe i am too sensitive..or did i just read too much Pinkpau's blog??? I feel so isolated today..so so isolated..like no one cares about me, and i am transparent, like i have no friends...lonely...
Yea, maybe i still have everyone beside me but i dont seems to understand a single word they said. Even my best friends...i dont get what they mean then...they just talk among themselves..left me behind.
I am choosing package 2 too. That means i will have to leave all my best and close friends and move into a whole new environment....I dont want to leave them. I just want it to be like usual, where i go to school every normal morning and greet everyone whom i knew so well, no strange faces. In a nutshell, I am scared to try new things alone..
My mom said i am caring too much about friends, putting them more important than anything.
So, please, talk to me..anything will do..i dont want to be an alien..
update at 8.25pm: WORST DAY EVER!..now i knock my head again and bleed a bit..then my dad scold me for being so stupid...someone, please kill me!