Saturday, March 26, 2011

Fragility of a life

We never thought those stuff will happen to us. We listen to the stories and thought, it's just stories that happened on others, but never expect to happen on ourselves. What if it does someday? How more fragile can human life be... It reminds me of the parable of the rich fool:

Someone in the crowd said to him, “Teacher, tell my brother to divide the inheritance with me.”

14 Jesus replied, “Man, who appointed me a judge or an arbiter between you?” 15 Then he said to them, “Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; life does not consist in an abundance of possessions.”

16 And he told them this parable: “The ground of a certain rich man yielded an abundant harvest.17 He thought to himself, ‘What shall I do? I have no place to store my crops.’

18 “Then he said, ‘This is what I’ll do. I will tear down my barns and build bigger ones, and there I will store my surplus grain. 19 And I’ll say to myself, “You have plenty of grain laid up for many years. Take life easy; eat, drink and be merry.”’

20 “But God said to him, ‘You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?’

21 “This is how it will be with whoever stores up things for themselves but is not rich toward God.”

(Luke 12:13-21)

While we are so busy going through our daily routines, earning money, working, studying...we tend to go for those stuff so much that they seem to have higher priority than God. But what if one day, we die, where would all those go? If we are told that our life would end in an hour, would any of them still be important?

Tsunami in Japan and Myammar, also the wars in Middle East. I have not much to say about these but how fragile can human life be? One second we might here, another, we might be gone from the surface of earth forever.

Shall end this post with a reminder with Luke 12:32-34:

32 “Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. 33Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will never fail, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. 34 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

p/s: sorry for the disorganized way of writing. my mind is really disturbed...

Tuesday, March 22, 2011


Note: I'm writing all these "value-related" post recently, not to condemn anyone, but just a reminder for myself, so whenever i look back next time, I would perhaps be reminded of something about it. :)

Speaking about core value, this is something my mentor for CAL spoke about on the very first day of this programme: RESPECT. I dont really get what he mean that time, (maybe i still dont now). I mean we listen to this word this pre-kindergarten. We were told to respect our parents, our teachers, our siblings, elders, our friends and even little animals. Respect this, respect that, We were told to respect EVERYTHING.


We weren't told why should we respect people. (Ok, maybe you did, but no one told me)

Respect, as defined on WordWeb: The condition of being honoured (esteemed, weel-regarded); an attitude of admiration.

We will encounter people from all walks in our life. Some worthy of our respect and maybe some don't. It is easy, when we are asked to respect people of high ranks like prime minister, pastors, principals and many others. It is easy to respect our parents, our grandparents or any artists or star sport-players. But when asked to respect people like burglars, robbers, thieves, rapist and criminals, it may be a bit difficult to do so. But what i wanted to talk about here is, respect for our acquaintances and friends in daily life.

It's ok to tease and joke about our friends. Relationships without some jokes will only be boring and mundane. But we must know our boundaries. Talk with respect. Joke with respect also. Know where your boundaries are.

When you are complaining that your friends are craps, they don't respect you, please, think:
  • Are you WORTHY of being respect?
  • Are your deeds and words, portray you as a person who deserved to be respect? To be recognized?
If you dont give a damn about all these, then never complain that you are NOT RESPECTED as who you are or as a human. It just plainly mean that you would let your ego be trash anyhow others like. If you want some respect, then be someone who deserves it.

Just to end this short post, I would like to share this quote:
We must not demand for recognition, but work to be worthy of recognition. - Lincoln.

Thursday, March 03, 2011

Speak out

It's kinda weird that recently, i actually have the mood for blogging and also the contents for it of course. It's been a long time since I had the passion for it. Maybe because lately, cognitive challenges keep coming, attacking my mind and forcing me to think different, to think, " What if it happens the other way?" I used to be timid and dont dare to speak out. My friends who read this might think: RUBBISH, Christine Wong has always been a very talkative and active girl, ever since we knew each other. Well, that might be true on the outside, I really talking what I was thinking? (You may think about that for yourself too, are you?) What our mouth saying every day, is it really what you are thinking in your head? Or are you just saying it to cover your mistakes/because others said so, so you say like that too?

Are the words you are saying, REPRESENT the soul living inside of you?

To speak whatever your thinking, seems ever so easy. dont have to actually find a way to twist the words or make up a fake story. But why is it then, we always find it so hard, to speak out?

This is not a matter of speaking about "me" all the time, rather, speaking FOR ME. You can always try to hide yourself and blindly agrees what others said. No problem in doing that, no one's gonna condemn you for doing that, and yes, it's legal until a certain extend. But don't you think by doing so, you are actually losing your identity and not using what God has specially spoke to you? By the time you reach the last few moments of your life, won't you be regretting that, why hadn't I speak about my ideas, my opinions which maybe could make a difference to what i had been through? Why hadn't I told what I wanted to say? It's like not going after a dream, but it's worse, because you dont even dare to say it out, what more of doing a concrete action. Don't look down on your thoughts and what you said, they are not merely words, but describes your person as a whole. Being able to speak for yourself is a gift too you know? The DEAF AND DUMB having difficultly doing so!!!!

Though, I'm not instilling the idea that we could always speak whenever we like or whatever that's of our means at anytime. We could speak as in, we should not use words to harm people INTENTIONALLY. That's why people always say Words are sharper than swords. Cause it attacks our mind, rather than physically. Yes, we can use it to condemn people but for GOOD, for them to be better being.

I had been to 2 interviews recently for some positions of clubs. But as i finish and come to think of the objective of going to those interviews, i found out that, i dont actually want those positions that badly. I just went for the sake of...going through an interview. But through these 2 interviews (Of course i've been through other interviews before but these 2 showed me great contrast in speaking out), I had learn about speaking out what I am thinking! In my first interview, I didn't speak for myself. I was faking everything up. Saying stuffs that pleases people, instead of what i actually think and wanted. I felt very sad for myself right after that. So during the 2nd interview, I decided to speak what I really think. It may not be as good, as pleasing, as standard or as well-planned, nor it meets the expectations of interviewers, but I know I am not lying. I am presenting myself out there. Telling people, who I really am, what i really did and my ideas. The result? I'm not sure how would it turn out, maybe i'll get it, maybe i wont, but for one thing i can be sure is that, it's my first step of SPEAKING OUT FOR MYSELF. And i'm soooooooo sure to tell you that - It feels really good! :D

To speak boldly and courageously. To speak sincerely. If you think speaking out would make this world a better place, don't lose the chance.

"What one spoke may not be absolutely right, may not be as well comprehend, but if he speaks from his heart, he speaks from what his conscience told him it's right, nothing else could compare with it."
- what i thought today. :)

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Competition and Comparison

I bet this is what most of us face today. We tend to compete with others and compare our achievements and abilities. Even if when we don't do that, people would compare us with others. It's a human nature, to want to be the best and perhaps, "KING OF THE WORLD!!!" no matter how humble you may claim yourself to be.

Another character of mine exposed: I'm a very competitive person. I do not know since when did I develop this trait because situation wasn't like this long time ago. Though i realised, it was since then, i started to strive for better things and improvements, both upon myself and people around me. High expectations and all those craps. It does bring me to a higher place. But recently, i find it very annoying. It's like, I am born to a people-pleaser and fulfill people's expectation. Do you ever feel it? When you felt that it is your forte in a thing, then the next moment, another person right beside you, could do it better than you, millions of times better. it just destroys all the confidence. And ego acts. Trying to beat that person, and the NEXT person doing the NEXT big thing keep coming in. And we're in that never ending chase. It creates all the invisible barriers and pressure on our shoulders, draining our souls and the spirit to be just ourselves, instead of competing. Have you ever felt that?

Without any competition, human would not develop as fast. (And there's no iphone4, no cars, no internets and you wouldnt be able to do what you are doing right now.) The exponential curve of technology, science and human development would collapse. There's always sense of content and gladness of course. All people living happily. And imagine cavemen living happily. Then all of these melodramatic lives of modern man would not come true. You and I would still be sitting in the caves, doing exactly the same thing our ancestors did. But is it because of that "sense of inadequate" that made us what we are today? The sense of wanting to be better? Or maybe best?

But of course, we should not ALWAYS compare ourselves to others. That would just make our lives even miserable than before. We're create unique, and that's how we should be. We're all gifted in certain area and "retarded" in some. We're all not perfect, and trying to be perfect, is not going to work, cause we will never be.
It's like comparing a red apple with a green apple. Which doesnt make much sense, cause you would said red apple is sweeter and green apple looks better in colour etc etc. They are created that way!!! Why compare?! We're not perfect - A sad reality but an awesome one as well. Hence, being a people-pleaser is not what we should be doing! That's certainly not the purpose of ANYONE's life. We're all not born to make others happy. Instead, to fulfill God's purposes for us.

That's the question I had been pondering about lately. What's God true gift for me? What is the tool I have to fulfill His will for me on earth?

Maybe you can think about that too and pray for it, if you haven't figure it out.
So lately, I have read about to overcome this COMPARISON COMPULSION syndrome, we could try serving others. Especially those who cant repay you. It trains your humility and connect yourself with others. Yes, serve the Lord and also the people around. When you do that, it's no longer comparison but compassion cutting through. :)