Thursday, July 28, 2011

Grateful for stress

This title may sound skeptical and absurd to many. But yes, I should, or at least try to be grateful for the tasks thrown onto me at the moment. With university application deadline, A2 trials and club activities just around the corner and many matters not settled, and that applies to spiritual and emotional sense. Priorities start to mess up and I could no longer think with a clear mind, no, I CANT EVEN THINK.

Children are imaginative, but as they grow up, surrounding influences mould them, restricting their minds but at the same time telling them to "think outside the box, think outside the box!" until the point that their shell hardened and they could not longer think ourside the box, colour outside the lines or even to think, for themselves. The number of university graduates has never fluctuate this high before in the recorded history before, yet, is the number of THINKING graduates at the same rate? Or have we stopped thinking for ourselves, but have become more tolerant and numb towards the information bombarding us at this so called golden age of technology advancement, becoming more accepting towards information without analyzing them critically or even think twice about them? We blamed the former scientists for creating so many formulas and calculations and for taking up the credits, leaving nothing for us, the latter generations to have something SO GREAT to venture and explore to contribute to the comfort of our children. But is there really nothing else? Or we are just not as intelligent as our ancestors, we worsen instead of becoming more refined?

Yes, so many thoughts running through my mind lately. I woke up this morning pondering, are God and services to His ministries starting to a back seat in my daily life? Rushing through activities and assignments without chance of catching a breath in between has left no space for me to talk to Him. I do not want to be one of those working adults who go to church services just to wait for it to end so they can fulfill their "responsibility as a Christian." I could pray to God and let Him handle all my worries and take away my burdens. But if i were to do sit there and pray only, my work is not going to be done! It will still be there as time passes. More of an excuse for procrastination? No. God listens and heal. He provides a place for us to rest, TO REST and not to slack. He will guide us through our daily life but we can not just sit there wait for food to magically appear. Of course, God can do that but He doesn't! Because believers are not suppose to be a bunch of lazy bumps who sits around and do nothing. We work to support our worldly lives just as Paul did but be careful not go overboard and be so fond and worried over wordly matters like clothes and food, nor let greed conquer you, but something just adequate to let you live your life and help others in need. God will provide, yes, He will. I am not sure how, but He will show you the way to do it when you are there. Have faith in Him.

So i got up and worked on my writing, frustrations started to build up. My mind blocked. I could not possibly get anything done at such devastated state! But a friend of mine told me, be grateful of those stress and opportunities to do those tasks! Do them for the glory of God and you will find joy in them if they are to His will. Indeed, be grateful, Christine, thank God for this. There are not many people who have the chance to enjoy the luxury of overseas education, nor studying in a prestigious college that are doing their best to prepare you for your future! Embrace times like this when you actually have the opportunity to work for them! Complete them at your best with great relish!

and stressful times like this will be aimless, bottomless tortures no more, rather, a chance to mature.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do. (James 1: 2-7)

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